Ten years ago, when I wrote my first autobiography for a web site, I was just a little girl, barely a teenager. Now while I sit here and toot my own horn, and say that I was eloquent, even back then, I was still just a kid. A whole 14 years old, wise beyond my years.

Now almost 10 years later, My mid 20's are creeping up fast, and I'm no longer that little girl.XXXXXXXX I'm still me, my friends still know who I am, but I've changed. In the past 5 years I've grown so much. I've learned alot. Some things the hard way, some not so hard. I've tested myself in more ways than one. I've let myself go in ways I knew better.

Who I am now, is a much better person than I've allowed myself to be at times. I still have growing up to do. I still have alot of aspects of my life that I'm working on changing. While I don't have a concrete plan worked out, I'm on the right path, and that means alot to me.

Alot of things about me haven't changed. I still love the same band as I did 10 years ago. Hanson is forever a part of me. I'm just not an obsessed teeny-bopper anymore. My taste has branched out significantly, and even outrightly changed. Now I love bands like Buck Cherry, Korn, Disturbed, I love The Rocket 95.1. They play music I love to listen to now.

I still love Disney movies, and I still collect them, but I also love alot of other movies. I still hate scary/gore movies, and avoid them whenever possible. It's only for Jimbo that I watch the ones that I do.

I love animals, and have two wonderful cats, with their own distinct personality. I'll always have animals, be it cats, dogs, or something off the wall like a turtle, and fish collection.

For over a year now, I've lived in my own apartment, paying the bills and providing for my own day to day well being. Decisions are now 100% mine.XXXXXXXX I live with my wonderful husband, and have to consider his feelings and opinions. Ultimately what I decide to do is my choice. I also understand having to pay for some of the choices I've made.

I've learned, having everything you want is hard work, and while you're young, it's supposed to be hard. If it wasn't, you wouldn't appreciate anything, and take alot of things for granted. I no longer take certain stuff for granted anymore. Sometimes that means working over time to make the bills, then so be it. Even if it means working 80 hours a week, 2 jobs, and 7 days week, you do what you have to do.

For once in my life I'm keeping my mind focused. Becoming a better person, which encompasses so many things. I'm just working a little at a time, changing minute things. How I live, and take care of myself, to my work ethic, and how I apply myself daily. Breaking the habits that are going to keep me down, versus lifting me up.

The person I was going to grow up into at 14 doesn't exist anymore. I've changed too much, so much has happened. It might have been fun being that person, probably easier, but I look around at my life, and think, how could it be any better than this. I've got some of the best people around me, and wonderful man that loves me, and a future. A future with Jimbo, a future in this career I've chosen. I still have so many great things ahead of me to happen in life. No matter where I thought I'd be when I was almost 24 years, I'm still doing pretty good. I'm proud of myself. I can't wait to write my next autobiography in 10 years.

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